Tuesday, March 24, 2009

First night at home

What a great feeling to be in your own home. What a great feeling to have such great family around you. I came home yesterday and it felt to come home. It hurt to get up and walk but it is getting better. Before my surgery, I had no clue how painful this was going to be. I had seen enough before and after pictures on Cancer website so the scars and bruising I had expected, the pain I did not. I am also a baby when it comes to pain. At one point I refused the Hyperion shot (to prevent blood clots) but my SDubs heard me refuse and she told N who rushed in and ordered the nurse not to listen to me. I had to bear the pain of that needle every 8 hours.

So for those of you who are reading this to get a glimpse of why I did this. A year ago when I got diagnosed I attempted immediate reconstructive after my double mastectomy but they got infected and the Plastic surgeon had to remove them and told me to get my 15 month of treatment done and come back to rebuild my body. So off I went to get 15 months of all the treatment with half a body. I did not feel like a women (I am a very girly girl) and my self image started to get me depressed. So now after this surgery I feel complete again. It amazes me how great doctors are. It is amazing how they can rebuild the body! There a few professions that I has my full respect (Doctors, Cooks (yes I know not very interested but it amazes me), engineers, architect, Scientist). All of these professions builds from nothing!

My nurses just arrived (Moore and and H), my Afghan doctor. You know you are Afghan when every member of your family is a doctor. Everything gets healed with Spinach (Spasi), shorwa and food! But I do love the Green Chi.


  1. Hi,

    It was just my first time to visit your blog. I did not have enough time to read the entire blog but I could read the last 3 or 4 posts. I am glas that you're back home. Being in home (either your own home or hometown) gives us the feel of proud and happiness.

    I really appreciate your sentence which says "I am also a baby when it comes to pain".

    I hope you would soon get much better and be as healthy as you want to be.

    Here in Afghanistan is it spring now meaning that the local new year is started and every body is in either Sakhi Shrine or Mazar-e-Sharif.

    I promise you that once I can go to Sakhi Shrine I will pray not only you but also the entire people who are suffring from sickness.

    By the way your attitude towards professions surprised me because I always thought that a profession is an income generator only. However, reading your article helped me to think more about different phenomeona.

    all the best,


  2. Hello,
    Happy to have you back. It is great that you are going to be with your family and that you are doing well.