Sunday, July 19, 2009

Missing in Action -- sorry

Dear all:

I am sorry that I have been missing in action but life took over for a little bit and I returned to work The first week of July.

Cancer stuff:
The hair is growing back thick and curly. I can finally style it and it looks good. I have been working to out to get healthy and lose some weight (not working). I have been being super healthy with what my family puts in their mouth. I started to see a therapist to help me deal with the depression that hit after treatment was done. I did not realize how much bullshit we push a side when we go into survival mode. It is also very scary to not see the doctor on a weekly basis like I have been doing for the past 15 months. I have to learn to deal with the "how you are doing now comment" that I get all the time. If you want advice from me, please do not ask a friend who was battling cancer the following:

1. "how are you doing now". We hate this! We want to shout back and say "well, we are not dead yet". Just ignore the question. Say something like, I am excited to see you.

2. Don't say "great hair cut"....we did not have a choice. Say something like, you look great, love how you are making this work...

3. Do not say "wow, you gained weight in your stomach"....we know we have. We do not need you to tell us.

4. Do not tell us about the family or friend who went through the same thing.

Personal life:
Having some issues with work stuff. Very stressed out about some bad advice I was given. I hope it is resolved by end of July. I hate living in limbo land. Found a tick in my daughter's head. Very worried that it doesn't turn into that "target" sign or Lime disease.